Can't.

Can't pretend to not care.
Can't care either.
Can't push it all under the carpet. I have no carpet.
Can't wear it all on my sleeve.
Can't trust my instincts always.
Can't ignore my one true friend - my instinct.
Can't not crib.
Can't convince myself it's ok to crib.
Can't get away from my trust issues.
Can't not trust absolutely random people.
Can't help but connect with unexpected people.

Can't feel a connection to anyone at all.

Just can't.